Silver Linings Playbook...

hhhmmm... after having a meeting this morning, i've decided to watch a movie than had made Miss Jennifer Lawrence as The Best Actress at the Oscar last month. to be frank, i wonder how she could get the honor since that i only know her in the Hunger Games. well, now i know, hihihi... as for Mr Bradley Cooper, hhmmm, what else you couldn't say abt him... handsome & funny, and great in acting i believe, lalalala.... :D

yeah, love hurts, hahahahah...

synopsis - Bradley Cooper plays Pat Solitano, a man with bipolar disorder who is released from a psychiatric hospital and moves back in with his parents (Robert De Niro and Jacki Weaver). Determined to win back his estranged wife, Pat meets recently-widowed sex addict Tiffany Maxwell (Jennifer Lawrence). She tells Pat that she will help him get his wife back if he enters a dance competition with her. The two become closer as they train and Pat, his father, and Tiffany examine their relationships with each other as they cope with their disorders.

more about this movie is here.

well, for me, this movie is nothing but DEALING WITH CONFLICTS/ PROBLEMS. sebanyak/ serumit mana pun masalah yg kita ada, kita tak boleh lari, melainkan kita hadapi & selesaikannya, barulah hati rasa tenang & happy. 

semua org ada masalah. org yg xde masalah tu hipokrit. cuma cara kita tangani masalah je yg buat kita ni kekal waras atau sebaliknya. kalau kita lari dr masalah, confirm benda yg sama akan berlaku pada kita, over & over again. kalau tak boleh selesaikan sendiri, carilah bantuan dr org lain. kalau rasa takkan ada yg paham, mohonlah bantuan drpd Allah. sesungguhnya Allah suka kpd hambaNya yg memohon kpdNya. insyaAllah, selesai lah masalah tu. cepat atau lambat, kena sabar. part ni la yg payah sket, heheheh...

citer ni mmg best. tatau la kalau korg rasa biasa je. masing2 ada pendapat tersendiri. yg penting, citer ni dah berjaya buat aku gelak sorg2 dlm bilik aku yg gelap tghr ni sbb tak pasang lampu & mendung/ hujan kat luar, hahahahah...  

enjoy peeps! 

Sadaqah...

sebagai org Islam, kita disaran utk menderma sekiranya mampu, atau bahasa arab nya disebut 'sadaqah'. sadaqah ini boleh diberi dlm pelbagai bentuk, sama ada kewangan, harta benda dsb...
last wednesday aku mendapat perkabaran yg our maklong (mak's eldest sister) dah admitted dlm ICU. it may be a surprise news for some people since that our maklong selalunya ceria & bersemangat je. but for me, somehow i already expected this sbb maklong had ITP - Idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura.
what is ITP? (more on ITP is here) 
ITP is a characteristic rash associated with an abnormally low platelet count (thrombocytopenia) of unknown cause (idiopathic).^[1] Most cases appear related to the production of antibodies against platelets, and so the termsimmune thrombocytopenic purpura or immune thrombocytopenia are also used. It is frequently asymptomatic and discovered incidentally. However, a very low platelet count carries an an increased risk of bleeding and purpura.

ITP is diagnosed by a low platelet count in a complete blood count (a common blood test). However, since the diagnosis depends on the exclusion of other causes of a low platelet count, additional investigations (such as a bone marrow biopsy) may be necessary in some cases.

In mild cases, only careful observation may be required but very low counts or significant bleeding may prompt treatment with corticosteroids, intravenous immunoglobulin, anti-D immunoglobulin, or immunosuppressive drugs. Refractory ITP (not responsive to conventional treatment) may require splenectomy, the surgical removal of the spleen.Platelet transfusions may be used in severe bleeding together with a very low count. Sometimes the body may compensate by making abnormally large platelets.

dan bila maklong diserang denggi, status maklong became worst... masa aku sampai ari jumaat pagi, hanya jantung sahaja yg berfungsi, organ2 lain semuanya telah rosak & bergantung kpd mesin sahaja.

as the platelet & plasma getting very low, the doctor asked for donors... here comes alhamdulillah my beloved brother pendi... coincidentally,  pendi was maklong & arwah paklong's favorite nephew... pendi's platelet was excellent as one bag of his platelet equally to 12 adults. - of cos because he's still young (24 yrs old) but aku percaya sbb dia ni rajin bersukan & TIDAK MEROKOK (alhamdulillah adik2 lelaki aku semua tak merokok).

Apheresis for mak long. Bismillah.

dia perlu menjalani ujian for abt 2 hrs. then dia diletakkan dlm senarai standby sbb plasma transfusion hendaklah dlm keadaan fresh (masa test condition maklong blom mengizinkan utk buat). jumaat pagi baru buat lps dpt call dr hospital. ambil masa 2 jam juga utk asingkan darah & platelet. this procedure is called Apheresis. lps keluarkan trus mskn dlm badan maklong. 

Soon it will circulate my blood outside of my body and separate my platlet

My blood. My plasma. My platelet. Separated. Bismillah.

tapi, manusia cuma berusaha, hanya Allah yg Maha Mengetahui. maklong telah selamat menemui Penciptanya pada jam 5.20 am, 25 Mac 2013 di hadapan keempat2 anaknya. maklong meninggal secara natural tanpa dicabut alat sokongan & oksigen. alhamdulillah, maklong meninggal dgn tenang...
so, kpd yg berpeluang, bersedaqah lah walau dgn sebaris doa'. mudah2an sadaqah ikhlas kita menjadi saham di akhirat kelak, amiiinnnn.
satu lagi, kalau rasa ada kemampuan, buatlah ujian darah, esp kalau kita rasa kita ni kurang normal dr org lain - darah lambat berhenti kalau luka/ senang lebam2 etc - sbb selalunya simtom mcm ni berkaitan dgn darah & lambat dikesan.
alFatihah kpd maklong saya, Hajjah Hamidah binti Haji Hairan (1951-2013)...

When You Believe...

                                                               

   

Many nights we've prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

In our hearts, a hopeful song

We barely understood

Now we are not afraid

Although we know there's much to fear

We were moving mountains long

Before we knew we could, oh yes

There can be miracles when you believe

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will

You will when you believe

Oh yeah, in this time of fear

When prayer so often proves in vain

Hope seems like the summer birds

Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here

My heart so full I can't explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

I never thought I'll say

They don't always happen when you ask

And it's easy to give in to your fears

But when you're blinded by your pain

Can't see the way, get through the rain

A small but still, resilient voice

Says hope is very near, oh

You will when you

You will when you believe

Just believe

I believe, I believe

Just believe

You will when you believe

Alhamdulillah... Yes, you need to always believe, believe in Allah of course :D

School Trip...

last saturday, buat pertama kalinya aku melepaskan anak dara sorg ni pg school trip, hihihihi... punya la excited nya, parents, teachers, and of course, the student herself, hahahaha.. hr2 ticer tny, zara join tak? akak join skali tak? sbb i can't give one quick response sbb masa tu bobo xde & unreachable (cheh, mcm pg obersee plak, padahal kat kuala selangor je pon tp xde line, huhuhhu)

oh, zara start talked abt it few days before the trip. ticer kata kan mak, nnt nak pg buat pizza, lps tu tgk org buat coklat, lps tu tgk org buat roti... (Domino' Pizza, coklat mende ntah & High5). hmmm, beriya plak zara ni, so why not i give her a chance, kalau dia tak suka nnt xyah la pegi lagi (since got another 2 trips this year). trip ni kena bayo. kalau parents nak ikot pon bleh, bayo jugak, hua3. of cos la kan, nak bayo bas lagi, OT ticer lagi, bfast & lunch lagi, heheheh... tp kalau 3yrs & below parents WAJIB ikot. yelah, kecik lagi kan. as for me, sengaja tak ikot, nak soh dia berdikari sket, sambil nak dia enjoy dgn kenkawan. kang kalau aku ikot kang melekap la plak kan. lg pon, unfair la for others yg mak tak ikot (mmg xde yg ikot pon, hahahah)... oh, ticer soh pakai kasut, so memandangkan zara xde kasut, pegi la bli kejap ptg jumaat tu, huhuhuh...

tido awal sbb pagi nak kena dtg cepat, abt 7.30am... pagi tu, bangun dgn mood baik sbb nak pg trip. siap soh mandikan sbb dia kata nnt lambat (kalau tak mandi sendiri). lps dah siap2, amek beg, salam walid, trus ke skul. tgk kenkawan ramai yg dah sampai. aku pun tunggu la kejap sampai dia gerak. semua org dpt sebotol solivite & roti krim utk bfast. zara mana la suka roti, so dia minum air je (kat umah dah siap bfast susu sebotol, hihihi). dah siap minum ticer pon soh la semua beratur... tetiba dia peluk aku & cium aku lama2... skali aku tgk, dah berderai air mata, hahahaha... ala siannya... sedih kot 1st time bejalan mak tak ikot. muka pon cuak je. agaknya dia pikir, apa la aku buat ni, hihihihi... sambil beratur tu kejap2 kesat air mata. nak nangis beriya malu sbb ramai parents kat situ. risau la plak aku, hihihih... so aku pesan la kat ticer, kata zara tu tetiba sayu hati plak nye, tlg tgk2 kan la. besfren plak tak pegi kan, lagi la sedih kot. ramai yr 6 yg pegi, plus budak2 transit. 4 yrs ada la 5 org je kot. hantar sampai dlm bas. tu pon muka mmg cuak gler. bas gerak je melambai mcm org nak pg PLKN, hahahahaha. sampai tak nampak mata kot baru tak lambai. sian la plak anak aku sorg ni, hehehehe... dah tghr tu, terpikir gak, ok ke tak zara ni? ke tak enjoy/ sedih sorg2... so aku sms ticer, nak tau keadaannya. guess what ticer said? SERONOK SAKAN! hahahaha... good for her :D

balik dah nak pkol 4. ticer kata masing2 dah pengsan otw balik, hahahaha. ofcos la, penat kot, heheheh. zara pon tak larat nak citer, dok sengih2 je. dah sampai rumah baru borak. dia kata best!!! ada org buat magik, lps tu semua org dpt roti, hahahaha... lps tu kan, makan nasik kat tasik... heheheh, seb bek seronok, hahahaha...

aksi awal, seronok, hihihih

dah start sedih, nampak kesan air mata tu? ;)

cuba2 buat ceria (tp kesan air mata ada
lg tu, hihihi)

gambar cuak b4 bertolak

oh, ticer kasik je bwk duit (tp ticer simpan, kalau nak bli ticer bayarkan). tp aku tak bagi pon, zara bukan paham pon lg nak beli2 ni, lg pon kan dpt byk goodies bag dr kilang tu (dpt sekotak small pizza, 1 trial pack coklat & sebuku roti putih, also 1 chocolate roll). yg beso2 pon ramai tak bwk duit. yg penting dpt jln2 & enjoy dgn kawan2, kan?

can't wait to have another 2 trips. nak tgk dorg nak pg mana plak (and cheyu pon jeles nak ikot, hahahahah)

muka berlengas but happy :D

nyanyi2 sambil enjoying the pizza, hahahaha

Activities... and others... ngeee~

wah, march oredi??!!! pemaleh nye weh nak tulis blog ni ha, hehehehe

well, hidup berjalan seperti biasa, alhamdulillah... kerja datang dan pergi... sibuk itu perkara biasa. yg penting jgn tinggal solat - pesanan utk diri sendiri, muehehehe...

hhhmmm... zara dah start swimming class. dah 2 kali pon. masa 2nd time baru sempat nak pg skodeng dia. bukan sbb tak percaya tteacher/ school dia, saja la nak tgk, btol ke swimming, ke propa je, hahahaha... so, abt 10 am haitu, aku pon menjalankan aktiviti skodeng. tempatnya mmg dah tau, and aku mmg confident selamat, sbb tu aku benarkan dia pegi. lg pon, i want her to know how to swim, tak mcm mak nye ni, terhegeh2, lps tu panik tak tentu pasal, hahahaha... jeles dlu tgk kenkawan yg tau swim, steady je ke sana ke mari dlm pool tu, huhuhu... 1st class tak pegi sbb tak enroll lg. lg pon haitu dia takut nak g kolam, so aku malas la nak excited sorg2 kan. skali dia yg mintak sendiri - bleh tak kalau zarah nak swimming? oh, dgn besar hati omak eh ni bersetuju, muahahaha... siap kata, swimming dgn mak tak best! yelah tu kan... alhamdulillah, the session went very well, hopefully tiap2 session camtu lah, lg pon ada je mothers yg dtg tgk2 anak dorg (aku tak la kan, tanak la spoil the fren2 mood, hihihi). cikgu nye pon ramai, tgk la anak tu dah stage mana. zara beginners, so ada la dlm 6-7 org yg sama dgn dia. tak takut pon, steady je kat pool beso tu. cuma sbb dia cekeding maka terketar2 la dia nya pon. so cikgu pon bg attention lbh sket la kot kat dia, hahaha... yg klakar tu cikgu dia cam wonder, mak sapa la dah mcm papparazi ni ha, dok skodeng2 tepi tiang sambil amek gambo, hahahaha...

zara yg ber goggle oren tu, tgh kompius, mak aku ke tu? hahaha... 

cikgu ensem tgh beri tunjuk ajar sambil kontrol
macho kot sbb ada org skodeng, hahahaha

lagi aksi cikgu... eh, zara, hahahaha

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on saturday, we went tp the dentist. aku dah lama bertangguh nak wat scalling tp tak pegi2 kan, so this time xde nak ngelat2, lg pon nak expose kat zara dgn dentist, so we went there with my future dentist sister, or what her nieces/ nephews called he cheyu , hihihihi...

masa aku wat scalling, zara masuk skali tgk, lps tu her turn plak check gigi... the dentist praised her by saying - good girl la dia, berani, bagus... after 3 months dtg lg ye... zara mmg steady. agaknya dia tgk aku buat xde apa2, so dia xde la takut kot, hihihih....

sempat lg posing, hehehe

kuat tgn genggam kerusi tu, nebes,  hehehe

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as usual, our weekend activity nowadays is to visit our kebun. zara sonok pegi tiap2 minggu, xyah mandi kat umah sbb nak mandi sungai, hihiih... we also made a small 'sarang' for our family so that it could be our newest getaway during whenever time that we want (since that we are still living with bobo's parents).... it also would be bobo's latest project. hopefully this time akan menjadi seperti yg dirancang, insyaAllah - pray hard zila! kalau dah jadi nnt i'll make an announcement ye, for now takleh bg tau lg, heheheh...

syiok woo maen air...

perempuan melayu terakhir in the
making, hahahahaha

soon... :D

p/s: aku slalu assumed yg org yg ada blog mesti sbb ada byk masa/ kesunyian... lately semua kenkawan pon dah jarang update blog uolss... so i guess semua sudah tidak kesunyian lagi! happy for korg semua, yeay! :D