Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013...

hello there,

nampaknya bz btol beta bln ni, sampai xde satu pon entry masuk utk bln Disember, hahahaha... itulah hakikatnya. have to organize a bilateral meeting tanpa kekuatan anggota yg cukup, maka terpaksalah memfleksibelkan diri drpd jd office boy kpd bos... llalalalala... anyway meeting berjalan baik, alhamdulillah, delegasi semuanya selamat hadir & selamat kembali, tiada isu besar yg mengancam keselamatan negara. cuma tpt meeting je tak berapa nak best, maklumla bajet ciput, maka tempatnya pon ala2 je la, as long as it serve the purpose, and within the budget, hhmmmm...

disember nampaknya akan melabuhkan tirainya. dan aku akan bercuti sehingga thn baru. melunaskan kewajipan sbg saudara sepupu utk menghantar pengantin ke pihak lelaki. disoakan semoga semuanya selamat & kekal hingga ke akhir hayat...

well, 2012 nampaknya mmg thn yg mencabar iman & kesabaran kami sekeluarga. things happen by reasons. jgn sekali2 mempersoal takdir Allah, krn hanya Dia yg berhak ke atas hambaNya. setiap tindakan menuntut kewarasan & kebijaksanaan, semoga Allah mengekalkan sifat ini dlm diri kami utk menempuh jln2 hidup yg seterusnya...

thn 2013 will begin by sending my dear zara to a Montessori nearby home. i believe that she's ready for schooling, in fact she's the one who insisted to go to school. ibunya dah rasa sedih sbb dah xde teman berbual, tinggal yg kecik2 je, blom bleh bercakap, hehehe... i pray that zara could adapt with the situation nicely. and coincidentally, the school name is Ana Montessori... :)

to my deares hana, ummi doakan semoga sentiasa aman & gembira di sana. pray for ummi, walid & kakak, semoga kita akan dipertemukan dlm keadaan yg lebih baik kelak. ummi mtk maaf sayang sbb dah 2 bulan tak ziarah hana. alasan2 termasukla hujan & kesibukan duniawi. tp insyaAllah ummi akan kirimkan hadiah Yaasin sekerap yg boleh.

to my dear bobo, i am & i'll always support u for whatever plans that u make to improve yourself, & of course the best for the family. my prayer is always with u dear...

as for my carrier, i'm looking forward to have a different office soon. still searching, surveying & praying, semoga penghijrahan kelak akan membawa kpd yg lebih baik. the truth is hard for me to make this decision, but i believe that i need a change, to be a better me, for a brighter future, in my working life, and definitely for my marriage life.

alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah krn aku masih bernyawa. semoga kami sekeluarga akan menjadi insan yg lbh baik utk thn 2013 & thn2 yg akan datang, insyaAllah. jauhkanlah kami dr sifat malas & pelupa. dekatkanlah kami dgn sifat2 mahmudah, semoga kami akan terus menjadi hambaMu yg beriman & bertaqwa, amiinnn...

What to Expect When You're Expecting...

nope, i'm not trying to promote this movie dear, just want to share what i watched during today's lunch - to resting my head frm loads of works, hehehehe... but, at the end, hmmmm, i cried...

the story was abt 5 ladies with their hubs/partner/boyfriend...

couple 1: can't conceive, already spend their savings for IVF but still didn't work, lost a job, planning for adoption but hubby just scared being parents, and finally adopted & got offered for a better job.

couple 2: high school crushed, accidentally become a business rival, had a one night stay, got preggy but miscarriage, unsure abt the next step, the girl called it off, but at the end noticed that they both really love each other and give themselves a second chance.

couple 3: a health trainer, having a very healthy lifestyle, so independent, the man was also an entertainer, but having a child is not a one man show, it needs both to handle it, therefore the couple started to give & take.

couple 4: self entrepreneur, selling children's needs, well organized, always expected that pregnancy & birth should be easy & nice, but in between found out that 'pregnancy sucks', hahahaha... even she planned to have a vaginal birth, it end up having the c-sects. that is where God knows better...

couple 5: step mother in-law to lady no. 4, got pregnant at the same time, but with twins, and enjoying pregnancy nicely with the perfect health & body, but life only changed after the births, heheheh...

for me, citer ni bagus. it looked on both sides, the father & the mother. how actually men adopt with the situation. we tend to assume that everything is ok but for men, banyaaaakkk perkara yg dorg takutkan while having a child. and apa yg sebenarnya dorg fikirkan/ buat kalau dorg kena jaga anak, hahahaha...

as for ladies, ada yg bleh conceive, ada yg xleh for any resons, ada yg xde alahan, ada yg teruk, ada yg beranak senang, ada yg susah, depends, semuanya rezeki...

what makes me cry? the scene inside the OT room... really, it reminds me of having my girls, especially hana because it was only last year. rasanya baru je smlm lahirkan dia, and suddenly she already gone... how time flies...

aku rasanya all mothers yg tgk citer ni pon akan nangis kot, for different reason maybe, but one for sure sbb kita akan teringat that magical moments... childbirth...

alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah kerana memberi peluang kpd kami utk menjadi seorang ibu, bantulah kami utk mendidik anak2 ini agar menjadi insan yg soleh & menjadi khalifah yg terbaik disisi mu, amiinnn...

14 Muharram...

sangat sibuk skarang ni, walaupun ada byk benda nak citer...

cuma subuh hari ini tiba2 terasa rindu, rindu kpd hana... hhmmmm, kalau ada pasti sudah pandai bertatih ke sana sini... kalau ada...

alFatihah utk mu sayang... ummi akan sentiasa merindui mu...