Minggu baru...

morning peeps... curi masa pagi jap, hehehe...

remember my fb status yg kata 'saya rasa saya stress hari ni.... bla3...'... well, i was really stressful that time. for lots of reason, huhuhuh...

first, i felt i was very fatigue... dah tak penat dah, lemah lesu trus. after long weeks of org sakit & urusan kematian, then my bro's convo day, pre & post budget nye keje (mengadap sana sini), keje2 rumah yg tak penah abes etc... etc...

my life at home is not that bad, but i prefer to go to the office so that it will not turn bad, hahahaha... last time, i really like to go to work. i can hardly took leave, in fact kalau setakat demam tu aku bawak je zara dtg ofis, malas nak cuti sbb kena dok umah... well, living with FIL somehow tak selesa jugak, even though dah 6 taun dok skali. got some issues of cos, hahahaha... let it be there...

ble tukar tpt baru, got some feelings yg tak brapa nak best. got no frens yet (you know, FRIEND(S) - office mate is different eh). so secondly aku rasa sebenarnya i missed my good friends, hahahaha... you were everywhere, hahahha... i can choose who would i like to talk to, hahahaha... now through wassap still can talk, but the feelings are not there... it makes me malas nak keje, demotivated. got things to share with but no one to talk to. plus got less manpower with no boss. aku plak masih dlm process of digesting. not complaining, just feel frustrated with myself.

however, as always Allah knows best. suddenly last week zara got chicken pox - aku pon cuti la seminggu, yeay!!! memang rehat beriya la kan, kena kuarantin, dok terperap je la. walaupun tak berapa nak best (nak dok umah mana lagi kan - nak blk kajang bobo malas), tapi aku nikmati sehabis baik la, hahahhaa... got to watch many of my fav movies (and actors of cos). have some refreshment, insyaAllah... walaupun kena jaga org sakit, but i feel relief...

today, back to work. really pray hard that i already recover from my 'illness'. bismillah....

sakit tp sonok sbb tak skolah, hahaha

kesian kan, byk btol kat lidah, hr jumaat br bleh makan nasi...

dah sihat kita bwk pegi main sand art, yeay!!!

  

Congratulations!!!! Welcome to the real world, hehehe....

it was pokteh's graduation day yesterday... all of us were there, except our youngest sista cheyu, hehehe... cheyu peksa, xleh join... and ofcos abg2 ipar yg sentiasa bz kan, huhuhu...

anyway pokteh, congratulations! selamat menjadi dewasa. selamat menempuh alam pekerjaan yg sebenar. he was already went for THE JOB interview, really pray hard that he would join the scheme later, hihihi... at this moment, he tried to occupy himself with various job offered. dia dah biasa keje time study, so xde masalah.

again, tahniah pokteh! wish u all the best! :D

Hujung minggu yang panjang....

last weekend adalah antara weekend yang terpenat dan terpanjang dalam hidup aku rasanya... anyhow, it's really for a person that we love, and another one for someone that we (our family) fond dearly...

kak ngah, or her real name is ummy nur kamilah, adalah anak kpd famili angkat adik aku, angah... her mother was my fathers's colleague (or staff, or PA, i'm not sure) when he was at serting way back in the 80s... when angah wants to get married in 2005, suddenly they met again, after so many years. been told that our father was very nice to mama's father (angah called he mama), until he said mama should find abah one day so that the relationship will not broken. maklumla, hidup kat tanah rancangan felda, kena la baik dgn peneroka, baru la pengurus yg baik dan dihormati oleh semua, heheheh... well, mama's family decided to make angah as their anak angkat.


maghrib hari kames tu dpt wasap dr abah, kata kak ngah dah tenat. fyi, kak ngah kena kanser perut (something like that, tak sanggup nak tny byk). kami pon br dpt tau last week, ble mama call abah kata kak ngah koma kat hkl. bila my parents & angah sampai, baru dpt cerita. rupanya dah setaun dia sakit, dah buang satu kidney pon sbb masa tau tu dah stage 4. arwah tak kasi bg tau sapa2, tu yg kami pon br tau. so, aku pon dtg melawat the next day. kesian, dah tinggal tulang je, kurus kering. makan pun ikut tube. doktor tgh bg antibiotik shj since that dia nya kanser (or effect frm it) dah merebak ke mata kanan. bengkak matanya, hampir sebesar bola pingpong... masyaAllah... hanya Dia yg Maha Mengetahui apa yg telah, sedang & akan terjadi... kak ngah ni tak pernah sakit, dia la yg slalu jaga semua org, esp mama & babah nya sbb dua2 pon tak berapa sihat, kluar masuk hospital. tiba2 Allah beri dugaan mcm tu, sedih rasanya. wallahualam...

tak lama lps dpt wasap tu, angah plak hantar, kata kak ngah dah takde. innalillah.... kpdNya kita dtg dan kpdNya lah kita kembali. umurnya baru 26 or 27, Allah dah tarik nyawa dia. apatah lg kita ni yg tak tahu bila. well, anak yg baik mmg Allah sayang...

jumaat aku & angah cuti utk bersama keluarga arwah. abah, mak & uda dtg kemudian. dptlah kami mencium dahi arwah. sesungguhnya sangat suci raut wajahnya. agaknya sbb dia pun masih blom kawen, Allah sediakan semua yg baru utknya. hatta van jenazah pun masih berplastik. itulah rezeki anak soleh, wallahualam...

petangnya balik dah penat. membasuh hingga 3 load sbb mg lps bz di ofis, tak sempat membasuh. angah plak msk ofis kejap sbb kebetulan nak closed account utk bln ni. mak abah dah kepenatan, lps maghrib dah tertidur.

tengah malam tu tiba2 dpt call plak drpd makcik di kg, kata tokki dah tenat. Allahuakbar.. semua pun mamai tatau nak respon apa. kali kedua call br abah clear his mind, kata kena balik juga skarang. elok nak bersiap jam 2 pagi, anak2 bujang takde kat rumah plak, masih blom balik dr futsal (friday is a futsal day for them). masing2 bergegas balik, siap2 utk ke tganu. kebetulan aku bangun buat susu, charge tepon, dpt wasap kata dorg dah nak gerak. sempat berpesan supaya berhati2... tak lama je lps tu, abt 3.30 am, uda wasap, kata tokki dah takde... subhanallah, berturut2 plak rasanya. masa tu tak terfikir nak ke sana juga, so pesan utk sampaikan salam & sambung tidur.

esok pagi2 semua dah tepon. angah mengajak balik. blur sekejap. cuba bli online airasia, tak dpt sbb less than 4 hrs. kelam kabut bersiap, dahla yg 3 loads smlm blom bersidai. berpeluh2 sepagi tu. sampai lcct cepat2 pg tiket kaunter. but as usual, airasia masa ada kompromi. kami lewat beberapa minit je kot dr waktu masuk, semua pon hand luggage, tak bagi jugak kami bli tiket tu. berlari plak ke klia. tiket full la plak. yg ada business class... ramai ni, tak daya plak plak nak berabis duit ke situ. jem kejap kami time tu. anak2 dah kompius. lps tu teringat nak naik bas. ada ke bas tghr? biasa ke pantai timur bas mlm atau awal pagi. alhamdulillah ada bas pkol 1, maka bergegas la plak kami ke hentian putra. anak2 kompius lg, naek bas? hahahaha... masing2 dah teruja nak naik kapal terbang, naik bas je akhirnya...

sampai abt 8.15... semua pun dah lapar. makan dlu sambil tg uda ambil. sampai rumah dah 9.30, baru habis tahlil... takpe la, tak sempat tgk tokki pon, yg penting balik memberi sokongan kpd tok yg dah jaga tokki dua thn, semenjak dia sakit & nyanyuk tak boleh buat apa2... tok yg sabar... moga byk pahala Allah beri kpd isteri solehah mcm dia. tokki dah la garang. bila sakit lagi la garang. maki hamun, hampuk, pukul dah biasa je. tapi yelah, org sakit, mmg sabar btol tok... bila dah takde, tok mcm keresahan. slalu byk benda nak buat, tetiba dah xde apa, nampak gelisahnya. takpela, Allah beri peluang utk tok berehat pula mungkin. again, wallahualam...

kami tak rapat sgt dgn tokki. dia mmg pendiam. masa kecik2 kalau dia tak ke sawah, dia akan bersama lembunya, tak pon dgn beruk peliharaannya. mungkin krn kami jarang balik (dulu kan jauh nak blk tganu) so kami tak rapat. tapi kami rapat dgn tok, sbb tok relek je, tok masak pon beeeesssstttt... dah lama tok tak masak utk kami, semenjak tokki sakit. lps ni dpt la rasa balik masakan tok kot, hehehehe...

mlm td pkol 1 pagi baru sampai rumah. hari penat gler rasanya, sampai aku curi masa tido kat surau. sangat tak larat rasa mcm nak tegolek bawah meja, huhu...

semoga roh tokki & kak ngah ditempatkan bersama org2 yg soleh... semoga dicucuri rahmat... alFatihah...